Monday, June 11, 2007
gosh its so late now ,and to think tt i badly wanan meet up with jo,clovis and xw tml at 9 am =) i dun know if ill get knocked out soon ...i hope so thou if nort i shall be evil and make them wait till im fully awake ..tsk
aniwaes todaes study session with cui FAILEd due to our lack of any motivation to study .gosh .in the end we just chatted and windowshopped .i was so saddddded(i know this word doesnt exist ,but i feel it tuly brings out what i feel ......ahhh WOrds ) but i ws happy to be free frm the invisible chains of the invisible study ghost who haunts me to study .
plus to add to my sorrows ,the sun and the wind worked together to create this obstacle that prevents the jumpers frm jumping ....our run ups were super haywired cause there was this mixture of head wind ,tailwind and side winds tt made us terribly confused creatures ....
aniwaes i just realised tt sheeps dun hav minds of their own and hav no sense of direction and tts why they need a sheperd over them .i still rem cui telling me abt the herd mentality tt is evident in the behaviour of sheeps ,when 1 sheep falls jumps down the cliff,the whole pack follows suit .......u noe when the bible says tt we are the sheep and gods our sheperd it makes me think of how foolish we humans are...mabey being called a sheep is a degretory term....aniwaes im glad tt god is my sheperd ,every time i choose to take control of my life ,i always seem to go the wrong way ,now i just wanna follow his commands and live out the destiny he has for me ....if he doesnt want me to be in a relationship with a non christian so be it , if he wants me to to be in a certain job in the future so be it ,i just know tt im safe in gods plans .sometimes i just dun understand ?i mean i still dun understand ,but im sure he has a beautiful plan .it is so so hard to go against what u truly wanna do ,without being restricted .buts in him i trust
rainbow;
9:32 AM
